who knew a simple lunch with someone could affect me so greatly. or even be an answer to a prayer? my questions were answered, & my heart stayed calm. the answers i heard still hurt. & i personally wish none of this happened. but it is a reality check, & an opportunity for me to move on. i can hear or see the name, with out freaking out anymore, it is exactly what i needed. deep inside, i'm still hurting. & not a single person except her, knows what's going on. I wish an apology actually came MY way. because i sit here everyday & wonder if he still cares.